Recovery? What recovery?
Don't forget I still have 3 little girls at home that need their Mama in working order. I will say, it is infinitely more easy to recover from child birth without a newborn needing you constantly.
I had Mr. D on a Thursday, was out of the hospital the next day and on my way back to Wichita by Sunday afternoon. The trip home was uncomfortable, but being home with my little family was the most amazing feeling. We were home for 6 whole weeks! That might not seem like much, but to a family that had traveled every single weekend, it was heaven!
My recovery wasn't all together that interesting, the worst part were my breasts when my milk came in. Believe me, I tried EVERYTHING to stop it, but it came anyway. I tried icing my breasts, cabbage leaves and a bunch of other silly things to help the swelling, but the thing that finally worked was just standing in the shower and manually pumping a little. For a week, my breasts felt like rocks, but eventually they did get better and I wasn't the only one that was relieved, my husband was worried I would hack those suckers off at one point.
Now, its all about finding a bra (and clothes) that fit properly. My body has changed a ton and is still changing. Finding clothes is a constant challenge!
I miss D, but its more then that, I miss N & R just as much. After seeing them every week for the better part of 6 weeks, its hard not to. I miss the little circle we had become and I am sad that I won't be there to witness every new adventure they will encounter. N keeps me up to date though, I get every email, text and picture known to man to keep me involved in their every day lives. We also visit each other frequently and when we do, I get a free pass to hold D as much as I want to and (of course) I want to!
I never really went through the baby blues or postpartum depression like most people thought I would. I never had the "missing my baby" feeling, but I think that was due to that fact that I never felt like D was my baby. He was always N&R's little one and even though I was attached to him, I wasn't too attached that I couldn't say goodbye when the time came.
Plus, I am way too excited to start new adventures of my own.
First off, I am resuming my journey to Donutism. I took that first full week off from working out, but knew in two short weeks from having D I would have a 5k to participate in. I walked it, of course, but still made really good time and it felt good to push myself again.
I try to workout every day during the week and sometimes on the weekends if I have the time. I have noticed, not only physical changes, but also emotional ones. I have more patience with my girls, I don't get depressed nearly as often and I handle my husband's crazy work schedule so much better now. I'm not perfect and don't always get all of my workouts in during the week, but I am able to give myself a little slack and know that the next week I will total rock out again. I don't want to start over again and that keeps me going.
It is amazing to have my body back and I can't wait to see where the rest of the year takes me on this fitness journey. Warrior Up!
I am also working on starting my own business. My husband recently asked me what I wanted to do when I went back to work, what my dream job would be and I couldn't answer him. I was already a mom and that was always what I wanted to be when I grew up. Now, I needed a new dream and since the Surrogacy journey came to a close, I now had a wide open future. I was free to start the next stage of my life, but where to start? I realized I love to cook, bake and everything in between. When it comes down to it, I just want to feed people. I'm going to start out slow, probably out of my home, but my ultimate goal is to open a bakery/cafe/lunch place someday. While I thought I would wait to get the ball rolling, I keep getting signs that I should start the process now, so I'm taking the summer to prefect my recipes and get everything organized. I hope you will check out The Twisted Biscuit when it launches, Fall 2014.
As always, I am a mom and wife first. I love being able to spoil my family like I did before.
This summer is jam packed, full of adventure and I'm ready for it all!
No comments:
Post a Comment